had Enough of Enough for now!!

Yes, there are times when I should give thrown in the towel, called it quits, I am ready !!. I have a colorful personality even when I am shy ,yes I am shy and have patience it takes a lot for me to get really piss off I bet you been there? The question is how to get out? of ridiculously long hours of stupid lies ,of people who are just to self center that in the effort to “keep it real" like they say they just been self center and then when they try to hard it does not work . Well I question that ..I felt helpless dealing with stubborn, self-center people ... They don’t understand than you sometimes do not want to change them you just want to help because you FU##$King care about them . WFT ?? I said advise not change but I guess people take it the wrong way sometimes . Then they not only get offended but then goes by... throwing all your mistakes in your face so you end up being the bad one of the story. That's not right, Look at the millions situations you have overcome but one simple conversation can not take place without someone talking bull%%%shit about the other one. I lower not only my voice but my anger and every now and then let a bullshit go by .. I have to tolerate I have to say sorry I have to fix my mistake ..why can they for a change accept they are wrong just once !!I told her that I need … to communicate not fight …I was the bad one ..got mad walk away I try to keep in touch , calling, but once I stopped just to see the reaction , I did not hear nothing . She did not made the effort but after years I get a call and guess what yup is her... is so simple once you decide to walk away from me you made the decision to walk away from my life .I always thought that people can change .. once they get their priorities . Well, I guess I was wrong. Some people don’t change! They come back to be their old jerks forget about the love u show , just don’t want to admit they were ...wrong.

There is nothing bad in being like that sometimes but being like that all the time with people who care and love you well is just bullshit ,they can do it to me but if I am acting like them I have become like evil .. ignorant, selfish ,cold hearted ...If she can , why cant I? I guess “ The Wheel Of Fortune, what goes up, must come down” I maybe shy at times , peaceful but I do get tired of bullshit !!

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