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sweet ache in the heart (first love)

He still lights my heart like it was yesterday like a tattoo all over my soul he is printed he still by my side in a memory that sends me back to the love that first made my world spin We danced to the innocent beat of our hearts our own song yes, I remember the first fight felt like someone had ripped my heart when you say 'we were not meant for each other" A helpless tragedy like Romeo and Juliet. 23 years later here I am happily married .My first my past you were burning fire ..I look forward to see you in the future we were not lucky enough to get a forever but bless enough I was to found you and discover the butterflies in my stomach underneath me a heart beat thank you .p.s. Dedicate to love and my wonderful friend.
/My first love will always be part of me forever we lost each other many years ago but I think about him sometimes crazy right ? how one person can change your life!!. I do wonder if he is happy and hope that he thinks of me sometimes Although it did not work out as we planed and wanted I treasure those moments he was my inspiration a good lesson in my life I am truly grate full I am a different person now but never forgotten those good times, even when nothing happen between us .Compare to the story I am not married ,single but happy. He was special and will always be no matter how or what were the events that separated us he was prince charming for me it was a different kind of love but love . I just wish to see him and say so many things with a simple thank you for everything  was a blast something magical you made me feel beautiful in love that I could barely think . Eventually, I have continue with my life met new people, because life must go on, I understand that now .Love for me is perfect. Our actions are the ones that cause pain ect .how much you want to give to love depends on how much you want to receive start with a lie you may end up with a lie. I am not ashamed to say I am lesbian but yes I did met a guy who I may say love in a way it may not be the first love but it was love not the love I want now but in the moment it was a love that made me happy .we all have the ability to love as well the ability to define love on our own .Yes love is an emotion like many others but in some cases they can stay with someone forever if you want ...just like when you are sad or angry those emotions you can escape in time while will others will or can not .Suffering is not part of love but part of LIFE IT SELF and just like life ,love is worth any price any pain why hide under layers of SAFETY this is were love comes in to strips the layer giving us many emotions to show us that PLAYING IT SAFE IS NOT A WAY OF LIVING! you are both bless if you are able to find the one to be with you forever but if you do not you are still bless you may not be with the one or be with the one you loved but you met “LOVE “ in this lifetime because it comes in many different ways and forms. I AM STUPID ENOUGTH TO ALWAYS GO BACK AND GIVE IT A SECONF TRY NO MATTER WHAT !!Because for me love is PERFECT,MAGIC, UNIQUE ONE IN A LIFE TIME EXPERIENCE .

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